怎么说？

最近情绪乱来，

点算？

Make good test来着了，

我竟然还没拿书出来吞。

我真的要等天掉榴莲给我吗？

我的动力去了哪里？

我还在推动着自己，

但是怎么感觉推不动了？

我明白不少，

可是为什么我做不到？

我可以想很多，

为什么我就不可以做多一点？

我很想有个了解我的人跟我聊聊，

可是为什么就是找不到？

甚至连我自己，我不了解自己。

为什么不断的有人小看我？

还是我自己想太多？

但是我的确是这样，小看得很对

为什么我看到有些人可以跟你很谈得来，

我们却完全不会联络，大家都不懂怎样说话。

为什么我每次会有一些不应该有的感觉？

不看看现实？

不下一点苦工把这些感觉变真实？

为什么我承受不了这些？

为什么我根本不想想起这些？

为什么我会撇开这些，只顾着跟我的朋友发神经？

为什么我抬不起这些？比起很多人，他们其实只是小事而已啊！

为什么现在我的脑中只有这些为什么？

是压力大了吗？

希望会有一个了解我的人，

和我聊聊

帮我证明我自己

High Dynamic Range (HDR) pictures

THIS IS WHY I WANTED A DSLR SO BADLY!!

Original

HDR zoom blur

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HDR

HDR with neon glow overlay

Original pic

HDR with black and white overlaid

很有运一下

自从上次雨伞事件，这些运气陆续有来。

知道什么雨伞事件吗？

我再说多一次吧…

第二学期开学，

我带着愉快的心情，但是没有带雨伞

来到了吉隆坡这个大城市。

结果这个大城市呢，他看见了既心情愉快又没带雨伞的我，

他决定了每天下雨。

由于这个城市对我的眷顾，

我决定买雨伞。

这个城市又再次看见了拥有雨伞的我，

所以，他很慈悲的停止下雨了三个星期。

可是，雨，始终都要下的，

不然我们没饭吃

终于我的雨伞派上用场了，

我一打开我那可爱的雨伞，

它竟然可爱的自动断掉了。

这时我的心里什么都没有，只有一支中指。

接着就是晒衣服事件。也是差不多的。

过了一段时间，

雨伞事件也告了一段落。

雨，他正常了。该下时他会下，不下时，他不下的。

但是有一天他心血来潮，

看见了在晒衣服的我。

他看了很久，

终于我晒完了衣服，带着书包还有愉快的心情去上学，离开了我就住的地方。

他二话不说的，phoooooom!下雨了。

结果我把我的衣服再次洗了一轮，晒多一轮。

原来他没有放弃看着我晒衣和上学，

phoooooooom一声，我又得洗多一次，晒多一次了。

如果我说有第三次的话，你一定不信吧！

我本身也不信！

结果真的不幸

再洗再晒。

终于，晒了三天三夜的我的衣服可以回到衣橱了。

再来，就是锁匙事件。

顾名思义，就是锁匙不见了的意思。

当时的我有点疲倦，

打算跟着wetwet坏叔叔一起逃掉2-4点的lecture.

wetwet坏叔叔12点半就载我回去了。

回到去有什么事发生呢？

我竟然忘记了我弄丢了我的锁匙！

结果就…………………………你们应该猜到什么事发生吧！（猜不到的话可以问妈妈）

结果我就用了五块钱，上了一辆公共汽车(就是taxi)回到college去，

上完lecture, 4点了，应该有一两个Housemate回来了吧！

我按了几下门铃，

打了一通电话，

带着失落的心情流浪..

所以我决定call wetwet叔叔陪陪我。

wetwet叔叔被我从春梦中拉了出来，

可以想象到他会有几不开心，

但是伟大的他竟然愿意陪陪流浪的我。

高兴透顶了！

然后回到昨晚的事件。

我们L4（什么是L4?上google找吧！还不知道就真的落伍了！），

就是我，wetwet和huixin （还有一个不上facebook的ah leong）

突然想起今天是其中一个assignment的deadline。

我叫wet仔send我们要用到的recordings给我，

我负责搞。

上facebook发呆时，我们的“屁一”很smooth,

wet仔一把recordings send过来它立刻变粗糙了

refresh了几万轮，

按了几万轮，

我都开不了这个mail。

我就叫我们huixin姐姐帮帮忙，

因为他有其他事在搞，就stand by先，他好了再帮

try换browser, try restart电脑，try用另一个mail，

try到花都枯了。

终于！

屁一睡醒了，立刻把自己弄smooth了许多，

smooth到就连你看着他你都会滑倒。

download那些recordings,

down啊down啊，

就快完成了，

结果！！！

这个屁一又回到粗糙的自己，回到它最甜的梦中。

我的download就立刻定在那边，

不动了

我就等运，等它睡醒。

终于huixin姐姐搞定了，

我就叫wet仔 send那些recording给他，

结果我好像没有跟到她说，还是我说了，她没收到（这种connection很难讲的）

然后就变成了我跟她两个人在那边等…

等啊等啊，我的肚子叫我冲milo给他喝，

就在我拿水壶去装水煲的那一瞬间，

我一回到电脑面前

我跟huixin的chat box多了几行字

hey, i go sleep 1st har

i go sleep de la

3

2

1

1

1

k.

nights.

然后她就offline了。

这是多么残酷的一瞬间，

想到要自己一个人搞两个radio spot，听完二三十个recordings..

那种感觉…

就像有一块木塞塞着你的肛门，什么便都出不了来，

wat住wat住的感觉。

然后我就sms, call,出完招，结果都contact 不到huixin。。

我就自己一个寂寞的等connection变smooth.

终于…收到了， 一半.

另一半没救了……

我就再试试call醒huixin

终于他醒了，

我有救了…

结果wet仔跟我说那封mail send 不出给huixin。

噢 买 够 安

等 着 被 插

唉，算了…那个屁一死都不smooth给我看，

就丢给wet仔和huixin姐姐搞吧！

除了睡觉之外我不知道还应该做什么了

但是其实很内疚，两个group mate在搞assignment

我在发春梦。。

今天早上，

英文课，

wet仔一来到学校就叫我跑去CITC print要交的东西。

我带着平常心，走去CITC，结果我看到的是

不“平常”的CITC。从来没有看过这么多人过，

也许是我太久没来，没有发现这里变香了，学生们都跑来这里闻电脑。

我进了左手边的那side ，

不断徘徊等电脑。

等啊等，终于有电脑了！

我赶快

坐下，打开pendrive，按print，print "black and white"

这一连串的动作都在3-4秒内完成，

然后另一连串多余的动作也在另一个3-4秒完成了。

就是拔pendrive，关microsft，log off 电脑

我知道等电脑用的幸福，也知道11点有课，11点10分还在等电脑用的快感，

我决定慈悲的赶快让电脑给有需要的人。

我去到printer面前排队。

排着排着，

我发现到怎么全部人手上拿的都是colour print的？

我觉得不对劲，就去问问负责人，

他们说这架机的黑白ink那边坏掉了。

换句话说，

就是我着急着等电脑用，

那赶时间的一连串的动作，

那发自慈悲的心的一连串的动作，

都是白做的。我的心里顿时冒出了一根中指。

然后我跑到另外一side，

又在团团转，着急的等电脑。

这次等电脑的情况不同了。

我看到很多人看着facebook发呆

甚至有人开着facebook，在电脑面前睡觉

还有人开着CITC的电脑，

然后在电脑前面开着自己的laptop打game

甚至还有人开着电脑，对着laptop睡觉！

甚至还有很多开着的电脑，

而对着电脑的是桌上的notes还有files,

人就不知道去了哪里

哇 特 得 黑 奥！（我是说wth）

结果！终于！最后！

有电脑用了！

按了 print，

我开着电脑，拔出pendrive，跑去排队等printer。

搞定了才关机！

回到班上，我已经迟了40多分钟，

大家都在上着课了。

所以其实我觉得自己蛮幸运的，

但是不至于幸运到要emo那种，

都是小事

我还得继续冲刺呢

分裂

今天，我不知道该怎么说..

这两天，

整个人好像sot掉了。。

什么都没做，好像死尸，

今早，

整个人真的好动力，好精神，

拼命想着1月21日之前的机会，

一个实现我现在所想要的所有东西的机会，

再想像我做到后，我可以几串，我可以几有自信，

一切都很真实，因为我知道一定会实现，

我很努力的fight着这个机会，

很努力，我重复重复思考最有效达成的方法，

一面铺路，一面跑。。

我知道只要我跟着这条路走，我一定可以！

下午，

我在跑着Pavilion时，

突然，

我竟然emo了，

我想起上星期五Mass Media老师跟我们说的那番话…

是多么的“难以忘记”…

全班mid term最低分的我，

assignment又做到shit酱…

可能要repeat了…

不是resit exam这么简单，

是明年，要和我的junior一起拿回这个subject…重新做assignment,重新读回我最赌懒的theory

我知道老师会给我们make good test，

给多我们一个考试，重新补回我们不足的分数，

不然就是make good assignment,

一个要在一天里面完成的assignment,

也是一样补回我们不足的分数，

但是，

其实我没有信心…我不知道我相信自己，是不是对的……

我相信我说我行，我一定行，

但是，真的行吗…？

一本几百页的书要我在三个星期背完，

完全知道考试应该怎样应付，

key words全部都记得…

其实，我没有信心..

但是我答应过很多人，

我不要做回上一个学期的我…

我答应过我的家人，

我不会fail…

我mid term fail 了一科，我不敢告诉他们…我说我pass了

我在想…如果我必须repeat,我要怎样告诉，

一个爱我爱得那么过分的妈妈…

“我做不到”

我曾经怀疑，我有没有选错科系，

但是我把这感觉埋掉了，

今天，

它跳回出来，而且更强烈了…

我甚至有一种读完这个学期不要读下去的想法…

有一种明年再回来拿multimedia design的想法…

他们multimedia好多了，

不用烦多多，

做好assignment,

design好来，不用烦考试，不用烦resit, repeat..

再来我本身就有用photoshop的经验，

design这样东西也是我其中一样兴趣…

但是，

如果我把这个想法告诉我父母…

可能他们会伤心到在背后偷偷的哭，

在我面前强忍眼泪，表面上支持我

我的妈妈就是这样，我做什么，他都支持着我…

逼自己接受我的想法，我的做法…

就连我中学这么差的成绩，

他们都可以认同我…

我不想上form 6，我想上college，

然后因为我想到college对我们家里经济状况的影响

我跟我妈妈说我要上form 6

他本来也ok了，

我做好心理准备要上form 6

结果spm完了，我妈妈叫我上college

他懂我读form 6一定很辛苦，

他懂form 6 是什么东西，

所以我上到来这里，拿着政府借的ptptn,

结果我跑去拿了里面一笔钱来做我想要做的事，

那个其实是拿来预防万一家里负担不来的钱，

我告诉了我家人，

他们竟然也ok了…

到底…

我做的个个决定，

有没有错？

读broadcast,

拍video，录音，photography，

都是我的兴趣，我最喜欢的东西，

但是，theory部分，也是这科目占据最大部分的地方，

就是我最弱，最不喜欢，最反感的东西，

我强吞课本笔记强吞了两个星期，

差不多死掉了，

考试时才记得那一点点，大概的答案，刚好可以pass的答案…

我根本不想吞这些书本笔记，我根本不想坐在lecture hall听一些对我无关痛痒的课，

但是，我有得选吗？

为了我的家人，

我只可以不断improve自己，

把这课读好，

尽量做好我自己

让家人因为我而光荣…

晚上，

有人跟我说，

一部分的梦可能会完成不到，

当然，我明白，他有他的理由，合理的理由，

我没有理由拒绝

晚上，

有人突然跟我说我们还有一些功课没做完，

我必须在这个晚上赶完他…

当然我不是在抱怨，

我知道不可以因为一些情绪上的波动，影响整个组的分数

晚上，

我不知道我的身体在做什么，

我肚子突然很痛…我差一点呕了出来…

我怀疑自己是不是有我爸爸那样东西，

但是也许是我自己想太多，吃太多罢了吧！

好了，把这些字全都排泄完在这篇东西上了，

是时候再冲劲，再吞书，再铺路，再走！

我知道辛苦的日子不会长久，

但是如果我现在不辛苦的话，

我永远完成不了我想要完成的事！

再来我这些小小的波折算得了什么！

我可是身在comfort zone的一个幸福的人，

比我辛苦百万倍，连打一篇部落格发泄自己心情的机会都没有的人多得是！

我哪有权利说我辛苦说我累？

冲啊！！！！！！！！

Nothing is impossible.

These 3 words is just a crap.

If I ask u to turn me into a thin and fit and handsome and perfect version of Lee Hau Hui in a week?

possible???

If I say I can destroy this world in 3 seconds?

possible???

If I say I will get 6 As while I'm taking 5 subjects?

possible???

Answers are No, No and NO!

that's why i said these 3 words is just a crap.

BUT!!!

These 3 words does mean something if u just change the order.

Impossible is Nothing.

Yeah, Impossible is nothing.

If u say impossible, u have nothing.

Once u say it's impossible,

u destroy ur own hope,

u make urself fail.

If u say u can't catch up ur studies in 3 weeks time, and that's impossible,

then, u will just continue failing your subjects.

If u say u can't get this girl as your girl friend, and that's impossible,

then, u will just stay single life.

If u say u can't afford to buy this beautiful shirt for yourself, and that's impossible,

then, u will just watch the beautiful shirt and start envying, start blaming yourself.

If u had a dream,

Hope for it!!

Work hard for it!!

because u will get it.

It ain't impossible if u work really hard.

If u don't have a dream,

Maybe your dreams were eaten by the IMPOSSIBLE word in your mind.

Everyone has dreams.

So please look for them if u lost them.

11/10/2010

I really really wanna slap myself now..

And I hope there's someone to slap me..

Why can't I do what I promise to myself?

Why can't I do what I promise to people?

I understand what should I do,

I promised to do,

but why don't I do it?

I find it really hard to change.

Because my attitude was like this at the previous 17+ years...

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

This is me!

and I don't want this person!

I wanna be a new ME!!

This doesn't kill me!

I will keep going!

Changing is a process, can't happen in a sudden.

I will, do my best

Things that I've learned.

At this moment, the only thing that I want to do is shouting out what I want to share, what I've learned in my life, what I realized.

At first,

if u guys know,

I was really in a bad luck recently.

well it's all over and they just make me tougher.

First thing.

My dad got intestine cancer.

He has to go to the hospital twice a month for some very very suffering treatment.

I was really really down, bad feeling, emo.

It's not easy to handle this fact.

Next.

I got into an accident.

I can't walk for weeks,

I can't go swimming,

I must sit down on a chair and my leg on another when I'm bath.

U never try, u never know, how hard the feeling is, of feeling yrself useless all the time, think that u bring problems to people.

Sometimes people take it as a joke, and I have to fake a smile.

u can't imagine the feeling.

Then.

My mom had some ache in her breast.

After she go and check it,

It might be a cancer.

Once I receive the news,

what my feeling is?

I don't know what else can I do.

Luckily at last,

the report shows that that's not a cancer.

If u're experiencing all these, can u imagine what ur feeling is?

it must be some negative feelings right?

What I can tell u is,

I feel glad of all these.

Yeah, My father suffer in cancer,

luckily it didn't take his life away,

luckily my family's economic still can go on without my dad's income and with the insurance

I feel glad.

Yeah, I couldn't walk,

I brought troubles to people, I was so useless.

But luckily it's just 2 weeks,

with the whole car crash,

I only injured.

I'm still here,

My life still go on,

I still can walk after that 2 weeks.

I feel glad.

Yeah, My mom was so depressed,

I was so depressed.

luckily it's just little thing,

not cancer,

small surgery can finish everything.

I feel glad.

I can feel it, the God still love me.

He didn't take my life and my family ones.

He taught me one thing.

Be tough!

Every problem you face will only make you stronger.

So, accept them! solve them! kill them!

And sometimes, if you're emotional, if u're down, sad, upset, etc,

try to find something in that matter

to prove that u're not that unlucky.

U can surely find 'em.

Always thank God that he gave u a life.

U, as a player in this life, play it well! solve every stage u facing,

keep going until the end!

Don't give up just because your emotion asked u to do so.

U control ur emotion, not ur emotion control u!

And the next thing I wanna share,

A man without a dream without a soul.

It means that everyone must always know what you want.

Not only in the future, it might be short term.

if u don't have a dream,

please think carefully, set a dream for urself.

or else u're not going anywhere in the future.

ur life will be meaningless, and wasted.

If u have a dream,

Yeah, it's absolutely a good thing.

Just remember that ur dreams is ur dreams.

U are going to be responsible with ur dreams.

U are going to carry it on ur shoulder,

And the bigger the dream is,

the heavier the load on ur shoulder will be.

don't give up! push it with ur energy, with ur 120% of ur energy,

Carry it! till the end! till u get it!

I'm telling u that

what u wan to get?

a VERY successful life?

an OK OK successful life?

a NOT SO successful life?

a NOT successful life?

yeah, most of u want the 1st option right.

but remember,

if u choose the 1st option, u have to know,

the trouble u're facing,

the stress that u will face,

will be surely bigger than the other options.

If u really want that,

face the problems, face the stress, solve them!

get urself to what u wan!

Always believe that

U CAN DO IT!

Today,

One thing happened in the lecture hall.

People are sleeping, chit-chatting, until the lecturer get out from the lecture hall.

Then I started to think,

ur parents pay u 2 thousand + for a course that u wan to STUDY.

but then u sleep at the lecture hall,

chit chatting,

is it 2thousand is a really small number?

u can get it everywhere?

is it very easy to get 2 thousand + from ur parents?

Then i think again,

Me myself, I was doing this!

first semester, second semester 1st few weeks,

wth!

I feel so shame on myself!

I feel so sorry to my parents!

Here's all I wanna share... anyway

What I want to say is,

I'm ready to change myself.

Are u ready to change? =)

anyway, I hope that u guys that are reading it. please, feel it.

28/10

I noticed that my emotion is like graph y=sin x these few days.

Totally emo at the day before yesterday after college.

All my mind full with stress that i'm facing now,

money, studies, family, kawanku, myself. Ohhhh... =(

Felt the weight of my bag that I'm holding everyday.

I cant focus in the lecture,

so i runaway from the lecture hall, went to jusco for some daily expenses.

Then, i were supposed to have drama class, I skipped

with the reason im attending a function later. (Yeah I was really supposed to attend a function)

THen! i skipped the function,

with the reason im attending drama class.. -.-

Hey.. I was totally deactivated.

So long never emo, give me emo one day la.. dun blame me.. Xp

(well, i don't think people that related to these 2 things that I were supposed to be attending read this blog, so i post it. If u are the one and u're reading, then please act like u never read this.. hehe =])

Yesterday,

I was ANGRY.

Tired of facing some irresponsible, don't-manage-time fellow who ended his class at 3.30, and going to attend one important meeting at 7. then he go to the basketball field after 3.30 and play until almost 7. We're almost late just because of him. and it's not only one time he did these.

Tired of people who thought that I am stupid,

Tired of people who blame me without any evidence,

Tired of people who don't know me and act like they do then start talking cock.

Tired of facing people who said something I mind and thought that I don't mind, and keep talking. Even I tell them I mind, I scolded, they thought I was joking.

Hey man! I'm normal human being like u... What I did, there're reasons.

but at the night, I was really happy because I did my slide show for my english presentation BEAUTIFULLY. It was creative, and it's meaningful.

My title>>> how to be successful in your life.

Sounds like a very boring title but I did bring fun into it. Proud of myself =D

Today

Yeah! it's the day that I'm waiting for.. English presentation!

It's gonna be a very good show!

But!

Satisfaction did not achieved. left out many things due to the nervous, and I didn't prepare cards for me to hold.

but I did cover most of the parts. And the tutor loved it, my friends loved it.

Yeeeeahh. I did feel sorry to myself, because I can do much better. But i'm not emo. =D

And sometimes, if u have bad luck, it will be totally BAD and it wont stop. But every BAD LUCK things u meet, there's always a GOOD LUCK inside it. Just appreciate what you got. Face everything.

And yeah, sometimes, emotion is hard to control, and sometimes u don't even know what emotion to give yourself and people.

Accident

hey yo! me again. a person who always lazy to update his blog,

Well, now, im lying on a chair, and my leg on another,

so im viewing the screen from 45degree to it's left, and my head pointed at 45 degree to right..

and da keyboard is on my lap,

the mouse is on the table..

complicated right? whatever la...

The title is exactly why Im with this kind of pose.

Deep laceration wound on my left foot makes me cant walk.

the doctor said i must keep my leg on a pillow to avoid bleeding and 'bengkak'.

The story begins..................

One day,

the 2 'gay partners' of I came to my house (D and T),

Seperti biasa,

kita 3orang too sien will go here go there geh. go TC, at my house umm, talk crap, keng sam si, etc.

We were supposed to go to YawYih's house but we didn't.

We went to davies house and took his wax,

then we go khawai house set our hair up.

Set dao leng leng zai zai, thought of going yaw yih house,

but lastly we change our mind,

3 people world. haha!

As usual, D is the driver and T sitted beside him, I'm behind.

we drove to Bukit Istana while thinking where to go.

then,

The lorry from the front turned to it's right and we go straight.

hitted a bit on the right buttock of tian sheng's car,

we then lost control and the car spin several rounds clockwise and hitted the sides of the road.

we spin about 100++ feet from where the lorry hitted us,

our car were on the right lane while the lorry hitted us on the left lane.

whole car HANCUR.

while the car stopped,

Then i discovered my wound,

big big wound on my left foot,

WAA!

the i looked at my left hand,

WAA!

then i asked them "MY FACE ADA KENA MOU!? WEI!"

suddenly, a sound is heard

*tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii*

T:"RUN RUN!!! DUN SAY SO MUCH! COME OUT FROM DA CAR FIRST!!!"

then we ran out from the car,

after a few steps, i sitted beside de road,

D go bek to look for his MIA hand phone and T go and pick my bag for me.(laptop inside, gosh)

Suddenly, there're so many ppl around us, around me,

one called the ambulance.

and the others just stand there looking around (nothing to do)

and some said "u relax, ah relax, baring, baring.."

then i laid down on the road, and closed my eyes

as soon as i closed my eyes, some say

"EH! JANGAN TUTUP MATA!! BUKA MATA, RELAX..."

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... wan or not oh.... =.=

I looked at my foot, walao eh. 1st time bleed so much,

then i started sked and thinking crap

"if the ambulance is late, how???"

"god, i dun wanna die.. i haven't do many things yet"

think sooo much...

called my mom, cant reach, then called my bro.

while i was thinking those things, the ambulance came. huhhh....~ *Thank God* ==

when i reach da hospital, i was sent to the kecemasan there,

then they pour 1 bottle of dunno-wat liquid onto my wound

*no rasa*

the 2nd bottle. "UWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

that pain is sooooooooooooo........ un-describe-able, hell.

I getar for so long as that pain. that i cant forget.

then waited there for A WHILE until they called my name.

they check my wound then main main.

there're 3 doctors. (A,B and C)

A: ehh, u think this wound is laceration wound or deep laceration??

B: hmmmm... laceration la...

C: No no no! Deep laceration!

B: Laceration!

A: okok... we ask the big doctor later la ok??

A: and btw, u think how big is it??? i think 7 cm lo..

B: no! 10 cm!

A: 7cm la!!! ask him see!

C: 10 cm la!

B: see?! I said!

zadou.... =.= "trainers are scary"

then, they hantar me go x-ray,

then, wait A WHILE again

after X-RAY, then they hantar me go WASH WOUND again.

getar 1 more time.

then, wait A WHILE again,

more kua zhiong this time,

the doctor took a photo of my wound to send to the big doctor and discuss wat to do.

after gao dim these things, it's 5.30am edy.

(Accident>>1130pm)

they asked me puasa (cannot eat cannot drink) for 6 hours for the operation.

the operation will on 12pm next day.

then i puasa-ed 18 hours, operation at midnight 12am.

*Government hospital is the best*

Many people had visited me while im in the hospital. (thanks!)

and during the visitation,

D's dad had visited.

he said da sound 'tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii'

while the car stopped is just to remind the driver to off the light

*we tot da car's gonna explode soon, WTH*

that's all about da accident! come my house and visit me! ;)

Good Bye,

In KL, In Tarc, In E3,

The friend that I always hang out with,

that I can always talk to by heart,

that I always find,

My partner of my assignments,

is gone. (not that kind of gone of coz, choi!)

He stopped his studies in TAR college and will be studying MMU Cyber Jaya.

Taking Foundation in ART (multimedia that kind.)

He was taking broadcast because he dreamt to be a Director, of Hollywood movies.

Aimed high right?

But he has great talent in art.

He can draw. His art work used to be the Champion in Malaysia.

And he knows to write chinese 'mao bi' something something. (hope u all get it.)

His work was also be the Champion in Malaysia.

If u saw him drawing, or writing,

u will be impressed.

He doesn't want to waste his talent,

That is why he choose to leave, for his future.

All the best to u, Man!

Yesterday was our last day of the first semester,

And after that day, I will be meeting him less often,

Actually it's really pain,

to say goodbye to your BEST friend in TAR college.

Bye hau. best friend forever =)

The second part of my life

I'm currently staying at KL because I'm going to study soon at TAR College.

Tml is our college's orientation day.

10.30am at TAR college.

My primary school life is over,

My secondary school life is over,

And now my Kuantan life is over...

I'm just...

feel like leaving Kuantan FOREVER.

And I don't know why am I feel like this...

I was thinking

Will I be back to Kuantan after my studies?

The chance is too less.

I'm taking broadcast,

I'll be a radio DJ of whatever-FM

Or I'll be an MC of shows... Astro or what...

Then I'll sure staying at KL.

No more Kuantan.

hmmm...

Whatever..

What can I say is

Time flies.

BUaAAAAAAAAh!

At kl now

-end-

Life in NS..

Waaa..

So long never update this blog edy.. It became a dead blog edy..

Nvm la. No one come view also i will update bit bit now one.. Im damn sien la.. HAHA!

I was joining the National Service program since 27th of March at Merang Suria Holiday Camp at setiu, terengganu..

And I came out from the camp at 12th of April.. The previous Monday la..

My feeling when i first go into the camp??

I felt a bit scared but a bit excited.

and hmm.. Nervous. Lol.

I noticed that Terengganu and Kelantan people are really really ulu one..

Means very very kampung ahh..

They always do stupid things,

say stupid things,

and ask stupid things.

Brainless.

Everyone hate them. Lols.

And the people who are most hated by everyone no matter Malay or Chinese.

All of them are in the same dorm with me.. Lol =x

And some more I'm the only chinese inside my dorm...

Ish.. So dangerous. =X

The way i communicate with them?????

Say stupid things,

do stupid things,

and ask stupid things like them. LOL!

Be a brainless person in front of brainless people.. LOL =X

Sometimes really don't know how to communicate with them la..

Feel stress to live with them.. =(

Not that there're only sad things and stress in this camp la..

there're happy things also..

When I was together with the chinese there., really fun.

Swim illegally inside the bathing "something something" la..

[I don't know what it called. =(]

Watch AXN channel at TV room together with Nescafe, Nestum, Milo and Maggie..

Having 'Mesyurat' at Dorm D-4

Many many things la..

The activities there are not bad also actually although some are really brainless. lol.

most important is u have to learn the things they taught with right attitude,

then u wont feel boring with it...

The physical activities??

OmG! That's really crazy!!

Senaman pagi at 6.30 am.. [Very sleepy one arrh...]

Kawad Petang 2.30 pm~ 4.30 pm [Wan ppl die meh...]

and LUCKILY i terseliuh at the camp..

I got an MC writen "Dikecualikan kepada aktiviti fizikal SEHINGGA SEMBUH"

Sembuh liao also act no sembuh lo... hehheheheh!!

that's y i Kawad petang once only. LOL.

Hmm.. Still so many things to say about NS la..

it's quite interesting.. And I really miss there..

***People don't know to appreciate the things they have before they lost it.

SPM result.

1A+ [+Maths]

2A [M.Maths, English]

4B [Prinsip Akaun, Chemistry, Chinese, EST]

3C+ [Moral, ICT, Physics]

1C [B.M]

1E [Sj]

Satisfied.. =)

at least i din cheat in exam after sj paper 1.. lol

Tired

Thursday night : Went H&P yc until 2am

Friday morning [3.30am] : Went Sg. Lembing see Yat Chut (x dapat tengok apa apa pun...)

X tidur whole night.. Battery empty..

Friday Afternoon [12pm] : Reach home then go to sleep till 3 pm

ONline online online.....

7pm : dinner with family

8pm : sing k with frens

11pm : went zhen yin house take souvenir xD

12.30am : sLeep......

9am:

phone alarm :"Ring RIng"

me : *Press 'Sneeze on'*

9.05am:

phone alarm :"Ring RIng"

me : *Press 'Sneeze on'*

9.10am:

phone alarm :"Ring RIng"

me : *Press 'Sneeze on'*

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9.25am:

Me : "OH MY GOD!!"

Then i,

Mandi, makan, isi botol air, bawa belt, naik kereta mak.... ZOOOOM~!!! 180km/h

10.05am:

Sampai FOS. Omg... 5 minutes late..

>.<

DONT STOP!!!

Hooo.. Going YC with frens.. tml off day. will be at sg. lembing see "YAT CHUT" =)

2010

2010, this number look nice rite..

when u remove all the 0s, u can see my b'day date. haha

Is it a good year??

Bad things happened to me and my friends at this 1st 3 days of new year..

ArghH ==

New Year Eve, Last day of 2009 [31-12-2009]

DiGi is having fair at Megamall, and i'm one of the promoter who promoting their products.

I was chosen to promote DiGi Music.

DiGi music promoter have to wear fake hair [bao za tao] and work.

The fake hair is damn elegant and it attracts everyone....... =.=!!!!!!

Everyone wanna take photo with me... sien, famous liao. xDD

Nvm laa... one day 80.. bole bole. xDD

When the time approximate 12am, [time to countdown for new year 2010]

The main concourse of megamall is damn crowded,

everyone is countdown-ing here,

There are shows like lion show, 24 drum show, street dance.. etc. etc.

And the balloons and hung at the top of megamall,

when time strikes 0.00, the balloons will be released.

Jian Yang , Yaw Yih, Jeffrey and I went to the below of the balloons and ready

When the balloon released, Wooo!! Everyone is screaming and shouting,

And we can always listen to sound of balloons bursting that last for 5 minutes.

There are toooooooooo much balloons to break!! xDD

New Year, 2010 [1-1-2010]

Went Julia's house for party.

when we reach there.

no more foods.. LOL ><

then, we go to the petronas to buy some snacks and maggies to fill our hungry stomach.

There are beers and red wines,

We drink, we sing K, we watch movie at her house,

until 6am, I go to the room and sleep at her house.

I was damn tired but some of them still havent sleep and they're singing lee hom's song. lolol

9 am,

Jeffrey come and wake me up,

coz im working for DiGi too on that day. lol

I work with my tired eyes, and suffer all day long. pity me...

Whan Sek Gan Nan

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-Some of my friends juz went for NS, sooner, I will be like them.. Have to cut botak... And say hello to dark skins. OMG @@

-I tested my eyes twice.. 1st time [at A-look], "San Guang" 107 both eyes.. OMG!! The person say I hard to drive at night.. 2nd time [at another shop] "San Guang" 150.!!!!! OMG!! @@ Speechless...

They say San Guang can only become more serious and if i wan stop it from becoming more serious,..

I HAVE TO WEAR SPEC! =(

NexT,

I think I'll go for broadcasting at LimKokWing with azwan..

I can get scholarship if jian yang introduce me to them. lol

After the scholarships, I have to pay only 20K for 3 years..

Half year 3000..

cheap rite.? But I'm still thinking and i have to discuss with my family..

And I'm scare that I have no talent in broadcasting...

Omg.!! I really dunno where to go...

maybe I shud study form 6...

ArGHH.!! I have no direction.

who can tell me where am i going?? =(

Stranger..?