Things that I've learned.

At this moment, the only thing that I want to do is shouting out what I want to share, what I've learned in my life, what I realized.

At first,

if u guys know,

I was really in a bad luck recently.

well it's all over and they just make me tougher.

First thing.

My dad got intestine cancer.

He has to go to the hospital twice a month for some very very suffering treatment.

I was really really down, bad feeling, emo.

It's not easy to handle this fact.

Next.

I got into an accident.

I can't walk for weeks,

I can't go swimming,

I must sit down on a chair and my leg on another when I'm bath.

U never try, u never know, how hard the feeling is, of feeling yrself useless all the time, think that u bring problems to people.

Sometimes people take it as a joke, and I have to fake a smile.

u can't imagine the feeling.

Then.

My mom had some ache in her breast.

After she go and check it,

It might be a cancer.

Once I receive the news,

what my feeling is?

I don't know what else can I do.

Luckily at last,

the report shows that that's not a cancer.

If u're experiencing all these, can u imagine what ur feeling is?

it must be some negative feelings right?

What I can tell u is,

I feel glad of all these.

Yeah, My father suffer in cancer,

luckily it didn't take his life away,

luckily my family's economic still can go on without my dad's income and with the insurance

I feel glad.

Yeah, I couldn't walk,

I brought troubles to people, I was so useless.

But luckily it's just 2 weeks,

with the whole car crash,

I only injured.

I'm still here,

My life still go on,

I still can walk after that 2 weeks.

I feel glad.

Yeah, My mom was so depressed,

I was so depressed.

luckily it's just little thing,

not cancer,

small surgery can finish everything.

I feel glad.

I can feel it, the God still love me.

He didn't take my life and my family ones.

He taught me one thing.

Be tough!

Every problem you face will only make you stronger.

So, accept them! solve them! kill them!

And sometimes, if you're emotional, if u're down, sad, upset, etc,

try to find something in that matter

to prove that u're not that unlucky.

U can surely find 'em.

Always thank God that he gave u a life.

U, as a player in this life, play it well! solve every stage u facing,

keep going until the end!

Don't give up just because your emotion asked u to do so.

U control ur emotion, not ur emotion control u!

And the next thing I wanna share,

A man without a dream without a soul.

It means that everyone must always know what you want.

Not only in the future, it might be short term.

if u don't have a dream,

please think carefully, set a dream for urself.

or else u're not going anywhere in the future.

ur life will be meaningless, and wasted.

If u have a dream,

Yeah, it's absolutely a good thing.

Just remember that ur dreams is ur dreams.

U are going to be responsible with ur dreams.

U are going to carry it on ur shoulder,

And the bigger the dream is,

the heavier the load on ur shoulder will be.

don't give up! push it with ur energy, with ur 120% of ur energy,

Carry it! till the end! till u get it!

I'm telling u that

what u wan to get?

a VERY successful life?

an OK OK successful life?

a NOT SO successful life?

a NOT successful life?

yeah, most of u want the 1st option right.

but remember,

if u choose the 1st option, u have to know,

the trouble u're facing,

the stress that u will face,

will be surely bigger than the other options.

If u really want that,

face the problems, face the stress, solve them!

get urself to what u wan!

Always believe that

U CAN DO IT!

Today,

One thing happened in the lecture hall.

People are sleeping, chit-chatting, until the lecturer get out from the lecture hall.

Then I started to think,

ur parents pay u 2 thousand + for a course that u wan to STUDY.

but then u sleep at the lecture hall,

chit chatting,

is it 2thousand is a really small number?

u can get it everywhere?

is it very easy to get 2 thousand + from ur parents?

Then i think again,

Me myself, I was doing this!

first semester, second semester 1st few weeks,

wth!

I feel so shame on myself!

I feel so sorry to my parents!

Here's all I wanna share... anyway

What I want to say is,

I'm ready to change myself.

Are u ready to change? =)

anyway, I hope that u guys that are reading it. please, feel it.